Monday, October 27, 2008


What's wrong with me... Seriously...Sinning once more, and this time I feel no guilt, no shame, no sorrow. No repentance or confession prayer. I'm not like that, its so I fallen so low, stumble so hard, that Im so tired. Tired to deny myself, tired to press on, tired...I gave in...

To... This...

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Friday, October 24, 2008

Alabaster Jar

Here I am take me
As an offering
Here I am giving
Every heartbeat for Your glory
Take me, take me

This time that I have left
Is all I have of worth
I lay it at Your feet Lord
It's less than You deserve
And though I've lived astray
And though my days are few
You gave Your life for me
So I will live my life for You

Like you spilled your blood
I spilled my heart
As an offering to my King
By: Gateway Worship

The power of a song sang with a heart of worship, its truly great to be soaked in his presence. While running, in the midst of the rain, wind, heart beating 170 beats per min. So ironic but so true, I remember, even with so many things happening around you. You can have peace and rest in u. I looked up, remembering the meaning of my name, the power of His name as I call. How soon, the rain has stopped.

May only blog with longer intervals now

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Living Sacrifice

Pastor Mel shared something very insightful that I totally can relate with my heart. Romans 12 says Therefore I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God this IS your spiritual act of worship.

The issue with living sacrifice at the altar is we always walked down the altar by our own. Unlike a dead sacrifice it cant. How am I like that, always committing my life, to God at the altar and once again walked down living life not denying myself and taking up MY cross. I go back to old ways, old sin. That it discourages both people and me. And yet God still love. He still love...

God didn't ask for dead sacrifices because one was enough. He took the Cross, I can never take his but my own. Only through him, that I can say, that God Love Me. Only through him, I know my position the way God sees me. Only through Him, I can be free, guiltless, blameless, and righteous. Lord, Only through, in, with, and for You Jesus can I live this life

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

One More Time

If I was to define perseverance in 3 words it would be "one more time." Giving grace one more time, encouraging one more soul, loving through one more struggle, giving grace to once more for this sinner.

Have been praying, contemplating about this for a long time, and I challenging both Langkawi Ironman and myself one more time. So much unanswered questions, is this still my journey to take? Will I succeed this time? Will this bring me closer to his heart? I feel a need to go back as there is a persistent nudging and desire in my heart to do it again.

Am I scared? Tired? Discouraged? Omg u bet! But how can you see the sunset and rainbows when you are always looking down? Its about changing your focus to Him. Haha pray for me :) I realise last year its so difficult and it really cant be a personal journey. It has to involve people around me. Its time... for moulding of an Ironman