Sunday, January 28, 2007

My Fight In Tears

.....Today, I really wanted to spend time by myself today. Through out the worship, sermon and closing I could not stop weeping. Never stop praying, never stop reading his Word, but yet I feel my fight is really...Painful...

My fight for others believing for breakthroughs, my fight for other people's pain and suffering, my fight against myself denying myself that I don't even know what I want anymore, my fight to believe in HIS promises, my fight in my struggles.

Crying today was...Not my solution but I really needed to spend those minutes crying out to GOD. The closing song, "God is my strength, my shelter, my shield etc etc" somehow I could not open my mouth to speak those words. Its really difficult, but all I could do was to raise my hands and wept.

Somehow I do not even know those tears are mine? Or is it I am crying for someone else? But you know its all the same...I felt GOD...

Pastor Doug is really a Man of GOD, even without floral language his testimonies is something we should challenge ourselves.

Lord...I choose to fight

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Losing Myself

Alot of things happening around me and myself as well
In Christ Jesus enables me!

Have been asking myself, why do I strive so hard? Why do I want to succeed in everyti so badly? Why do I even want to struggle? Its time to find the answer. Although i am still fighting against myself.

But I do know 1 thing, the last 2 questions GOD is my answer, encouragement, and the reason why I can.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Amazing Champions

That's the words for this week. Simply amazing.

Although it was a week of hardships as well, able to encounter GOD in every circumstances was breath-taking.

U know times when u have a lot in your mind, a lot to do, think and worry? And sometimes u tend to forget the people around u? I thank GOD even during periods of trials, I am able to be sensitive to the people around me, of what they are going through, able to BREAK Out into their lives. Able to listen to them was a privilege and honor. Its never burdensome to listen! And these are the people whom I do want to c them in Church.

O and why champions? Because yesterday was my 1st race of the season. I had a tore muscle just a week before and it still hurts on the day before. But at the starting line I was like "Lord I have cried out to u everyday for healing, u know I am desperate but still I will run for u!" And off I went! With fresh legs.

TriElite was Champion in the Student Open Run. My Team was Champion and I was 1st in the Race. So 3 awards! All GLORY is Him alone.

GOD has also been very gracious to me this week, enabling to enjoy simple pleasures like the blueberry cheesecake I am eating ^^.

Although I am being oppressed and crushed, as HIS Warrior and HIS CHAMPION I won't fall...

Sunday, January 14, 2007


Thank GOD that my parents are able to go for a holiday during these 3 days. Very happy they finally got time to relax just them together. Romantic too? lol

Anyway, I do not want to blog long, tired but not beaten. Picture describes it all

Standing tall, A Lighthouse, A Light Bringer
More than Salt, More than a Giver
Pour it out to the Lord, Fighting the good fight
Nothing to ask for, But yr smile, A lovely Sight

I thank GOD I have no problem taking up, accepting, going through hardships and challenges. Because I know... I will win.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Year of Victory

2007 is here, our year of victory in everything we do. At first, I was looking forward and being optimistic about 2007. The new goals, my growth in all aspects, new challenges. Hmm but

Being stretch thin physically emotionally mentally, disappointed that I fail 1 of my core module especially when I thought I put in enough effort and confident in passing, still so tired.

While my 2007 didn't seem to start well, and honestly I was doubting GOD. What victory? What rubbish? And I did wanted to blame GOD but just nice that day I was to read Job 1 and Man I was thinking GOD u got to b kidding with me.

It seems my year begin rockily, but I know I will FINISH WELL. I thank u Lord I am desperate, I do need u more than ever. I thank u Lord that I am gnashing my teeth to strive for U. I thank u Lord I can carry on pushing on even with discouragement everywhere

Life is never a struggle, if u believe in GOD's promises. I do not know how will this be for my good. But I do know GOD will never make my life miserable and a pain. Even so my life will be in a state of unbearable pain like Job.


Pictures for End of Year Party(Retro) and some of the designs by my brother Josh, please read it, its soo meaningful and done so well! So proud!