Tuesday, December 25, 2007

End of Year: Colours of My heart

Before I start openly and honestly checking the spiritual condition of my heart, I would like to wish My Lord, Happy Birthday :) I love you, only you can steal my heart.

Being at Muar has been a very fulfilling and insightful trip as I had plenty of time to rest, consolidate and ponder. This Year of Victory even with my abundant of achievements, blessings and breakthrough, but it has also been a Year of tears and struggles.

It really has been humbling as I face discouragement and persecution! But through this season I take and experienced new joy in my growth, yearning for more! In Muar, I felt so prompted by

Matthew 7:13
Enter through the narrow gate, For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, only a few find it.

The narrow road and gate symbolize the challenge presented by the way of the kingdom. It's a road of discouragement and self-denial. To me, this year its really a struggle, but yet I find new peace, new strength, new comfort and light in every step I take this year.

The Lord didn't promise days without pain
Joy without sorrow, Sun without rain
But promised strength for the day
Comfort for the tears, Light for the way.

As I reflect on my own poem, I could smile on it, smile on my year of victory thru discouragement. Smile to my savior!

For He didn't always change the circumstances for the better. But he has moulded and change my heart! And in the end, To HIM thats precious and matters, is my HEART which HE desires while I'm learning to give all of it.

Monday, December 10, 2007


This pic is soo cool and I feel I can relate to it. A few more days and its end of this year. Its been a year of tears, hardships, struggles but victory as well. As I spend time asking and enjoy my moments with the Holy spirit, Josh told me to give a comparison on what I thought about certain aspects of things at the start and end of this year. Its amazing how my beliefs, theology and my own heart changed and perhaps grown as the Lord guides me.

I learn that it has always been a moulding process and Me being the vase is not complete but knowing the end picture I'm a beautiful vase :D. I be leaving for the Muar Trip as well, its gonna b a great time of seeking, asking as I close this year.

I believe victory this year has not only lie in my achievements, but my heart, feelings, thoughts and my growth. It has really been a process to learn and kip learning.

I believe honouring GOD is not only in what I do and feel, but its also in my growth, thinkinf, wisdom and even in what I know about my GOD.

Beginning of the year the reason why I choose to shine whether in team, school, friends and the things I do. I thought it was for the "glory of GOD".
But than again is it really? After seeking the Lord soooo whats that word, Aggressively? Lol!

I believe I do it is bcuz I want my actions to testify my love for HIM and HIS love and greatness for me.

My answers for now are not perfect, perhaps the Holy Spirit will change on whats my term for victory honour etc next year. but for now... Let my walk with HIM be right and constantly growing in the Spirit.

Sunday, December 02, 2007


Sky has created his first Chinese poem, *thunderous applause* *Drum Roll* haha I think not so bad for a 1st time and from someone whose Chinese is like a C6.



Nick came by today, hes a man of GOD with no arms and legs. He has used his circumstances to truly bring honour to the name of the Lord. Hes not super human, like every human, hes gets depressed, sad, weak he gets real with us. Life is not full of butterflies, but life is never alone.

He has taught me more than by his example.
Victory is not standing up when you fall. Is when u realise who you need, the choice you make, the life of truth and faith.